Massively stressed is how it feels. It's because your body is still reeling from the worst thing that has ever happened. No matter how long ago that storm was. It needs to be reset to calm after the storm.
Trauma and PTSD can often make you think you are going mad, or losing your mind. The intrusive memories and powerful physical sensations can overpower you. This, however, it true. You are not the problem but you have a problem. Once you can really believe that things can start to turn around for you.